New Year 2008, not new anymore...

Last 37 days, it was New Year's Eve, WELCOME 2008... it's only last 366 days, then it's gone forever..

Coming 329 days, a new New Year's Eve, WELCOME 2009...

same episode repeated.. start with celebration.. go back to work.. bla.. bla.. bla.. celebration again.. bla.. bla.. bla..

some sort of management i think.. all we have in our live is only time, one minute ahead, last one minute and this moment, second, minute.. name it..

now, i have a family.. wife and kid(s).. compare to 3 years ago, i have nothing.. not even myself.. am i happy now..?? yes, of course.. and then, what's next..??? waiting??? seeking??? hiding??? WHAT?????

blinking... blinking... blinking... 12.01 am, 2009.. happy new year.. one minute later, not new anymore..

i am a happy man, with all time i have.. with everybody by my side.. with everything that i have.. and then, what's next??? NEXT!!!! WHAT???

I WANT TO WORK FOR YOU.. YOU... YOU..

How??? How??? How??? New Year's Eve is coming...

money go-round

Februayry, 28 2007... paycheck cash in.. what a relief..

money is always go round like merry go-round at the funfair....

1st of all, car installment...
then, pay what you owed from friends...
then, keep some for petrol, toll tickect, emergency case of car break down...
then, my wife get some...
then, my parent, if they needed..
then, buy something for me self and my wife..
then... that is it.. the rest is for surviving untill next paycheck..

where all the money go?? they are going around the big circle of course...

the money go round, me stay put, stand still... no more money to go around..

the money go round, me go straight, and come back straight.. go to work, back home.. same route, same routine...

every month.. same... whatever.. :P

who am i??

a small pawn on a chess board??
**do your job, for the big course.. follow the system.. and remember, just follow..!!!!!!!!!!!**

or a metal ball in pinball??
**keep moving, or you will gone from the system.. you are not always lucky to go back to the ignition point... few chances, you're already blew some of it..**

ok cut it off.. it's a boring topic...

last nite, i watched 'Numb3rs' at AXN.. i'm sure many knows about this series.. in this episodes, one thing that really get into my head is how to define dimension.. 2 dimension and 3 dimension..

on the cupboard, or paper, we can draw a cube.. which is a 3-D image, and we accept it as a cube like a real cube.. and also we can imagine the other side of the cube.. human imagination is always unacceptable... far beyond the 7th sky.. but, we always forgot, that drawing is not in 3-D mode.. it is in 2-D mode.. the cube we drew always just a drawing...

and in our life, there is time when we use our brain, i mean thinking in 2-D mode, and sometime in 3-D mode.. it's magnificient right???

ok, what is 2-D??? it means, 2 axis.. X axis, and Y axis..

3-D means X axis, Y axis and Z axis...

all the axis, coming from one point.. it's a neutral point, or zero point...

2-D mode of thinking normally it's about cause and action.. when you do this, this will happen.. or this is what you get...

3-D mode is more complicated... normally it's about cause and action in a time frame... when you do this, this time, this will happen... but if you change the time, something else will happen.. sometime, you change the action and the time frame, the same outcome you will get.. sometime the outcome and time is fixed, the action maybe more complicated or more easy..

i impressed with the explanation in that series.. it's very mathematical.. but it's fit into your life perfectly, you can say it in numbers... AMAZING.....

unconciously we are using both mode everyday..
and, of course some level of people only used one mode of thinking, some of them used both... can you imagine if there are some level of people who can think in 4-D mode...???

what is 4 Dimension??? please refer to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fourth_dimension .. oh MY GOD...!!! it's really amazing..

if there is people who can think in this mode, it's unimaginable...

GOD.. it's cool.. adios...

when the time come

when the time come, we will be born..
when the time come, we will walk..
when the time come, we will talk..
when the time come, we will learn how to do what people do..

when the time come,
we will realize every people is same..
when the time come,
we will see the boundaries in our head.. skin colors, races and hierachy..

when the time come, we will get marry..
when the time come, we will have childrens..
when the time come, we will get sick..
yes, in the other words, when the time come, we will get older..

when the time come, everything that we are worry about is around the corner..
when the time come, we will be there..
when the time come, we realize why we are so worry..
when the time come, we realize we are sorry..
when the time come, we realize that we are ready..

preventive is better than cure.. prevent when you still have time..
when the time come, you will face it with brain..
when the time come, you will know that you are strong..

PROBLEM is always there.. you are on the road to them.. when the time come, you will face them..

PROBLEM.. sometime it really matters to one, but not the others.. same matter will give headache to some, not to other some..

the word 'problem' can be repalced by anything.. happiness, sadness, grieveness.. everything is same, it just the way we approach them..

and only the matter of time, you will face 'em.. prevent and prepared.. you will face them with brain..

what did i learn??

Gong Xi Fa Cai...

Festive season, again.. the most exciting phenomena in Malaysia, truly Asia... hehehehe... more holidays... hehehe... and also more traffic jam, more uprising tickect price, more headache.. GRRRR..

but it is ok as long as it is a holiday... a long holiday... :)

17th Feb to 20th Feb.. 4 days holiday... best...

my journey started at 7pm 16th Feb, pickup my brother and sisters, from KL to Klang to KL.. damn tired...

after dinner around 11.30 pm, the real journey begin.. Jln Duta Toll, so quiet.. not many cars around.. and i thought it was a good thing but, gooosh!!! after 10 minutes drive, it was a long traffic jam from where we were to God knows where... 20km/j every 5 minutes and then stop for one minute.. HUARGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!! tension gilos...

i was putting all my patient together, and drove so politely.. hmmm... after 2 hours, the signboard shows exit to Rawang, fuuuhhh!!! this exit is my savior... all the way to Slim River i used the toll free road.. it's more convenient.. no pay at all.. save more fuel.. no tension and i felt really calm.. pueh hati den... 80-110 kmj, as makan kacang poteh... yeeaah!!!!

7 am 17th Feb.. here we come b'worth... so beautiful.. hehehe... quite a long journey, and i was very sleepy.. my sisters went back home by bus and i went to my mum in law's house with my brother... we slept like kangaroo... hahahaha... whatever it was like, i dont care... hehehehehe...

what i have learn from the journey...??? be brave to take action, to make a decision.. stick to the course... eeeerrrr.. whatever i did learn, thank God we are all safe all the way home...

other than that, i learned that in our life,

our journey is not one way journey..
our journey is not one path journey...
every path you may take, you will reach upcoming junction..
and you have to choose which way you should go..
and again, junction and choose.. untill you reach your goal..
after that, you have to plan for your next goal..
and then, the journey start again..
and plan your goal again...

it'll never stop... that is the way it is.. so, stop complaining.. just be brave to make a choice, a decision.. sooner you decide, less tension you will get.. cool??? hmmm...

adios guys...

12th and 13th february 2007..

i was attending a course organized by my company.. a good one i think..

" Negotiation Skill "

the course was held at one of a few star hotel in subang.. quite a course it is.. i enjoyed it most of the time..

the things is, i dont really agree with the theory of negotiation, but you have to do the way the theory is to success in negotiation..

in the other words, you have to do what you are not believe in.. so, most of the time i try to figure out a reasons or looking for something i can hold onto, to force myself to partly believe in what i have to do based on the theory we have learned, at least..

and then the magical moment arrived.. the lecturer said something which is very important to me..

"money is not everything... personal gain normally is nothing.. we have to be sincere when we offer something because most of the people, they only care about the one they love.. their family and maybe friends.. sometime they really care about what people is going to say, sometime their hobbies... so, it's not about money.. maybe just part of it.."

"so, in negotiation, our currency is heart.. establish relationship is not that we entertaint them the best we can, or we give everything they want.. but it is about being their friend, in sense of really a friend, not just to gain something.. sometime we need to share experience, expertise, knowledge, or to share time together doing the same hobby.. it is not easy to find somebody which have same interest as you.. once you find one, just be a good friend.."

"success is measured by how many books you have read, how many friends you have get by the time flies year to year.."

"most of the time, people buy things not because of the things.. but because of what we can offer them in exchange.. dont get me wrong, we are not talking about bribery, we are talking about giving back as a human.. person to person.. why dont we just be friend.. a good friend to a good friend.. we give them a good relationship.. is that cool?? so to do that we must be very sincere, do not think about taking advantage on our friend.. and of course they will have a soft spot for us.. it's not us to decide, it's their's.. you never know, maybe it will be a relationship that long lasting.."

it's all that i can remember.. actually it is not the actual how the lecturer say it, i write it the way i remember it.. maybe got some modification...

adios..

the path of extraordinary men

last sunday, me and my friend have had lunch at "Gulai kawah" food stall near Pantai Dalam komuter station..

it was quite late for lunch time, around 3 o'clock. doesnt matter, we were starving..

after we finished our plate off, but please, not a single bite at the plates, as usual we smoked..

for sometime we talked about memories in school.. he told his story, i told mine..

and then suddenly i said, aku masa sekolah langsung tak struggle, tapi result ok jugak...

he said, aku pon tak jugak.. pemalas aku ni.. siot tul..

me again.. kadang2 aku nyesal jugak tak struggle.. masuk U, kena kick out.. sib baik U panggil balik, and aku abis jugak.. ye la kan, aku tak reti nak struggle sebab dari sekolah camtu..

and then he said.. tu laaa... aku pon rasa sedikit menyesal.. tapi tak pe laa.. dah sampai tahap ni, ok la jugak kan.. dah abis belajar, dah keje.. tapi aku terkilan jugak la, aku macam apa pon takde dalam hidup aku...

i smiled.. aku rasa kita tak perlu menyesal.. kita dah sedar apa yg tak kena dah cukup bagus.. learn from it.. walaupon aku pernah kena kick out, aku langsung tak ralat.. bukan eksyen.. tu adalah pengalaman paling berharga aku rasa.. dari situ, aku bangun balik.. berjaya abiskan study.. kat tempat yang sama.. walaupon lambat.. tak senang ko nak tabahkan hati.. ye tak?

tu la ko... he hehehe me.. smirking.. damn!!!

from the conversation i made my own conclusion...

"Orang luar biasa takkan melalui jalan yang biasa..." hehehe...

the most important thing is not the result, but how you handle yourself with the challenges you have faced, how u endure yourself in the path you choose..

and then, the result will come.. the quality of the result depend on how hard you struggle, how brilliant you face the challenge, how hard the challenges was.. and, above all of that, how much you have learnt..

challenges can be viewed from many perspectives.. what your perspective is will determine what you will learn, how much you will learn..

i learnt much from the past... and never regret is my motto.. haha.. i dont want to be extraordinary man.. i just want a happy life like everybody else..

i want to be a better man..

for myself, my family and if GOD give me strength, for my country as well..

fuuuuhh!!!! i feel better...

on my way home after work, as usual, TRAFFIC JAM!!!!!!!!!!

and alsoooo... as usual, i lost my sanity for a while.. tension level was going up.. and... suddenly this song was played by the DJ.. what FM is it?? IKIM or ERA?? dont know... i cannot remember when i almost insane..

nyanyian serambi-ramli sarip

tuai pagi balik petang
adakala sampai malam
cari rezeki bawa pulang
buat orang yang tersayang
bersabarlah

yeah!!! ok ramli.. you are right.. bersabarlah..

i have to admit it, the song make me feel better.. hahah.. i feel better.. and then, i was home earlier than i expected.. somehow, my journey as smooth as komuter.. i feel good..

it's not a magic, it's a sanity.. think and take action.. find the solution...

see ya..

life in a glimpse..

do you know that we blink 10-15 times a minute???

it means 600-900 times in an hour... 14400-21600 times a day.. 432000-648000 times a month.. and 5.1 millions-7.8 millions times a year...

http://www.britishcouncil.org/kids-games-matching-body.htm

wow!! it is an amazing fact.. but the real fact is, we are all live in a blink, just a glimpse..

you never notice... the clock is ticking every single second, the weather is changing every single second, time flies away and we getting older in every single second.. people die in every minute and baby was born every minutes.. all of that happen in a glimpse, less than a blink..

we never ever think about it until the new year approach because of our age is going up.. again.. and then we start making new resolution, what we want to achieve, to avoid, to bla.. bla.. bla.. too many things... and again, we start to losing up our mind on our life.. then we realise that the new year is coming again.. GOSH!!! the routine is coming back..!!!!

we only live once, when we die we never live again.. after we die, family and friends will mourning for a while and then hmm.. dead man never know..

in a glimpse, what is your dream???

i want to be a doctor (any dream you have, put it here)...

mmm.. how long??? 20-30 years??

maybe...

why??

satisfaction...

and then???

and then i will die with no regret...

so that is all, right?? satisfaction.. all we need is satisfaction... so we will die with no regret.. all we have done through the years we live is to pursue the satisfaction... feeling of enough and perfection..

is it a perfect glimpse for us?? for me, yeaaaaah... it is perfect... because i believe, every single of us have their own role in the universe.. so, when you satisfied, then you have fulfilled your role.. no regret, right???

time to stop friends... see ya...

bila terfikir pasal api........

arrrgghh!!! terlambat bangun pulak hari ni...

aku bangun pagi terus menghadap internet. rutin biasa setiap pagi. bosan jugak, tapi lagi bosan kalau internet tak der. selepas seketika, aku pergi sarapan kat kedai member.

"teh ais dengan power dua.." menu aku sejak lepas raya ni. for your information, power merujuk kepada telur separuh masak.

sedang aku termenung sambil hisap rokok lepas makan, aku terpikir pasal serangga dan api.

"tak der benda lain ke nak pikir??".. ye jugak kan. tak de benda lain ke nak pikir. tak kisah la, dah terpikir tu, layan je la kejap.

sebenarnya aku terpikir pasal serangga dan api ni sebab aku teringat org tua2 cakap, "bercinta ni macam bermain dengan api, salah langkah terbakar diri..."

api sifatnya panas tapi bercahaya. dalam erti kata lain, ia nampak menarik dan memberi cahaya yang terang supaya kita tidak bergelap dan kepanasan api digunakan dalam pelbagai aktiviti, memasak dan sebagainya. kalau kita tengok pada kegunaan api, kita memang bermain dengan api sepanjang masa. bila salah langkah, atau disalah guna, api memang membawa bencana, kebakaran, letupan, perang dan sebagainya.

"apa kaitan dengan serangga..??"

masa aku sedang bersarapan, aku ternampak seorang awek lalu. aku terpikir pasal perempuan. perempuan yang lawa, tapi suka menonjolkan diri dengan dandanan rambut, bentuk badan yang seksi, perhiasan yang cantik2, pakaian yang kainnya sejemput, diorang ni macam api ke?? menarik tapi panas.. hehehe.. panas beb, mana boleh tak panas. mata yang tengok pon melekat, ini kan pula hati yang rasa, tak geram ke??..

bila difikirkan balik, tarikan perempuan yang sebegitu, memang umpama api yang menarik perhatian rama2 dan kumbang2 untuk menghampirinya. semuanya tertarik kepada api yang bercahaya dan berkilauan dari jauh. masa tu, panas tu dah tak rasa dah, cantik berkilau punya pasal.. sedar2, sayap dah terbakar.. macam tu saja. api tu pulak, macam tu jugak, tak berubah apa2, lepas tu datang la rama2 atau kumbang2 yang lain..

tidak adil jugak untuk nak mengata kat perempuan saja. lelaki pon boleh jadi api jugak. bukan perempuan saja yang menonjolkan diri, lelaki pon suka menonjolkan diri jugak. mat bangla yang tak tahu asal keturunan pon boleh mengorat anak pak haji, apa yang diorang buat kalau bukan impress awek yang diorang nak tackle tu, kena la jadi panas skit kan.. sama saja lelaki dan perempuan, cara menonjolkan diri saja berbeza.

"tepuk dada tanya iman.." teringat pulak kata2 ustaz aku masa kat sekolah dulu..

ye la kan, betul jugak.. macam mana kalau tepuk2 dada, sekali bukan iman yang jawab.. ahh!! sudah..

macam mana kita nak menjaga diri supaya tak terbakar??? kita ikut peraturan la kan.. dalam kita patuh pada peraturan tu pon, bahang panasnya terasa jugak. kalau kita nak jadi api sekalipon, jangan la sampai membakar orang lain. nak jadi panas pon, panas la pada tempatnya.. kalau salah tempat, bahaya tu akan wujud dengan sendirinya. berhati2 la macam mana pon, kalau salah tempat atau salah guna, tak terbakar banyak, sikit tu akan kena jugak. paling kurang, terbakar hati...

"peraturan apa yang hang cakap ni....??"

peraturan apa?? kalau sebut agama, nanti orang kata, "bab-bab agama kita jangan nak memandai..." cakap macam tu pon memandai??? dah tu nak cakap macam mana lagi...

heheh.. hidup kena banyak berfikir, "fikir banyak2 pon susah jugak.." dah susah, fikir sikit2 sudah.. kan??

berkata benar VS hubungan baik...

prof. hamka ada menyebut:

kawan yang sejati adalah kawan berkata benar kepada kamu, dan bukan kawan yang hanya membenarkan kata-katamu....

mendalam sekali maksud kata-kata ini.. ia dipetik daripada tazkirah ramadhan yg disiarkan semalam di TV3 pukul 7.15 lebih kurang masa dok bukak posa...

bila difikirkan balik, apakah yang menjadi keutamaan?? adakah berkata benar atau menjaga hati??

tidak dinafikan, berkata benar adalah keutamaan, tetapi menjaga hubungan yang baik juga perlu diberi perhatian... adakalanya kita perlu berkata benar untuk mengelak daripada sesuatu keadaan daripada menjadi lebih teruk, dan adakalanya kita perlu berkompromi, namun tidak bermakna kita boleh menutup kebenaran.. berkompromi dalam erti kata mencari kaedah yang terbaik untuk menyatakan kebenaran disamping menjaga hati.. itu lebih utama..

kadang-kadang kebenaran tersebut tidak perlu diungkapkan, kerana ia tidak mengubah apa-apa... tidak memberi manfaat, dan tidak juga memberi kesan buruk...

namun begitu, dalam sesetengah hubungan, misalnya suami dan isteri, menyatakan kebenaran itu sangat utama.. kerana perkara pokok dalam hubungan sebegini bukan kebenaran tersebut, tapi sikap sama ada memberitahu atau tidak memberitahu... mana-mana sikap yang kita pilih akan mempengaruhi kepercayaan satu pihak kepda pihak yang satu lagi... dalam keadaan begini adalah menjadi tanggungjawab kepada pihak-pihak terbabit menyatakan kebenaran dengan cara yang terbaik...

kawan, sahabat, teman atau kenalan... semua istilah yang digunakan ini memberi makna berbeza tapi merujuk kepada jenis hubungan yang sama, bermula dari tidak kenal kemudian kenal... semua istilah ini merujuk kepada tahap perkenalan antara dua insan.. semua tahap perkenalan ini memerlukan pendekatan berbeza dalam mengimbangi berkata benar dan menjaga hati...

sikap berkata benar membawa kita kepada saling percaya mempercayai... sikap cuba menyampaikan kebenaran dengan cara yang terbaik pula akan membawa kita kepada saling hormat menghormati...

berkata benar boleh mengurangkan kecelakaan, dan menjaga hati boleh membawa kepada ketenangan... bayangkan jika kita mampu melakukan kedua-duanya, ia akan memberi kita kelegaan...

...berkata benarlah walaupon pahit..- petikan hadis nabi S.A.W

sentiasa berfikir dan bertindak bijak, kerana tindakan yang bijak hanya datang setelah berfikir..

hidup macam tayar kereta..

kadang2 kita dok atas, kadang2 kita dok bawah.. ikut pusingan.. macam tayar kereta.. masa kat atas pon tayar kereta, masa kat bawah pon tayar kereta jugak.. sama saja sebenarnya..

masa kita senang pon kita manusia, masa kita susah pon kita tetap manusia.. tetapi kadang2 tu nasib tak menyebelahi kita.. kadang2 dok atas lagi susah dari dok bawah.. dan selalunya dok bawah lagi susah dari dok atas.. namun kita tetap org yang sama..

bila kita kat bawah, kita selalu sedar diri kita.. tapi bila kita naik atas, kita selalu lupa diri kita.. apa la sangat kat mana kita berada, ia tak mengubah kita menjadi malaikat atau jin.. kita tetap akan jadi manusia yang serba kekurangan....

tayar kereta pon, semasa ia berpusing, ada masa yg kat bawah tu akan masuk lubang, jalan tak elok, kadang2 ok saja.. yang kat atas pulak belum apa2 dah kena turun bawah.. kalau tak macam tu, kitaran semulajadi sebagai tayar tak berjalan laa.. bila tak jalan, apa la guna tayar tu utk yg menggunakannya..

macam tu jugak hidup kita.. apa yg tuhan bagi adalah apa yg kita perlu pada masa itu.. apa saja yg jadi, perkara terbaik yg boleh kita buat adalah menerima nasib kita seadanya.. redha dgn apa yg berlaku.. memang setiap masa kita akan berusaha untuk menjadi lebih baik.. tapi kita harus ingat, apa sahaja yg berlaku di alam ini ditentukan oleh Penciptanya.. Maha Pencipta akan jadikan apa sahaja untuk kebaikan semua ciptaanNya..

adios... jumpa lagi..

apa dah jadi....

hari ni hujan lebat gila, tapi kejap je laa.. dari kelas aku balik umah, terasa jugak ujan renyai-renyai yg dah nak berhenti tuh.. bosannya hari nih..

minggu lepas kecoh pasal mawi sokong PAS sebab nak buat konsert kat Kelantan.. kelakar tgk buletin utama, utusan malaysia, berita harian dan jugak akhbar-akhbar tabloid dok tulis pasal tu.. tergelak gak aku.. kesian mamat tuh, yang nak buat konsert kat Kelantan tu bukan ke Maestro punya kerje ke?? apa laa.. benda kecik camtu pun kecoh satu tanah air.. macam la kes tu besar cam wabak selsema burung kat indonesia tuh.. aku bukan nak sokong sangat mawi tu, tapi ye la kan, dah nama penyanyi, memang la dia akan buat konsert, nak bagi laku album dia.. tiba-tiba pulak putera UMNO panggil mawi ke sidang media untuk buat pengakuan yang dia sokong kerajaan.. apa cerita sebenarnya nih.. apa dah jadi laa ngan orang-orang kita la nih..

dalam hujan yang lebat ni jugak aku terpikir pasal akhbar hari ni.. org ramai di lembah kelang terutamanya, diminta supaya jimatkan air, empangan-empangan di sekitar lembah kelang telah menghampiri takat kritikal yg amat sangat.. tahap kritikal sepatutnya penurunan takat air sehingga 70%, maknanya air yg tinggal hanya 30%. sekarang takat air yg tinggal hanya ada 40% shj.. melampau betul la.. sebab apa boleh jadi camni?? MB selangor kata air terpaksa dipam dari lombong-lombong ke sungai-sungai.. huyooo.. betul-betul kritikal nih.. sebelum ni sebelum perkhidmatan air diswastakan, ada jugak penurunan takat air di lembah kelang, tapi boleh je handle, takkan bila dah swasta jadi tak terkawal kot.. apa dah jadi laaaa...

hmm.. petang-petang camni, hujan plak, sejuk-sejuk plak, memang tak tau nak buat apa.. takkan nak tido kot.. ni yang jadi macam membebel sorang-sorang nih.. aku sebenarnya tengah tension tak leh nak study, tulis je la apa yg terlintas.. malas nak pikir banyak.. apa nak jadi, apa yg sedang terjadi, apa dah jadi, memang aku tak leh buat apa-apa.. leh tulis je la.. agak-agak apa yang boleh kita buat?? menegakkan yang hak, membenteras yg batil.. heheheh.. yg hak pon tak tahu apa dia, yang batil tu tambah-tambah la lagi.. semua macam boleh aje jek skang nih.. macam-macam..

lenkali la sambung.. dah merepek dah nih..